It's that easy?

So... Graduation. Yup. I'm graduated :) It's official... I'm supposed to be an adult now.

I decided not to walk this final time, mostly because I'm too lazy to sit through all the other people graduating. All I need is the diploma and teaching certificate, and I'm happy. It ended up working out for the better. My family is going on a trip to Carter's mission the same day, so that's where I'll be during commencement :)

Looking for jobs has been a lot more stressful and widespread than I'd ever imagined it'd be. I've known for a few months now that maybe I wouldn't stay at Davis High, but my thoughts were pretty constant on Alaska or Indonesia. However, last month I talked to some HR people from a district down in Texas, and now I can't keep that out of my head.

I don't know why Utah isn't appealing to me like I wish it would... There are so many reasons to stay. My friends, family, current jobs... But something is lacking here. Or maybe I need to get away from something? I don't really know. I just know that I had similar feelings after I got my mission call, and that was by far the best decision I ever made for myself.

Who knows... I'm so confused on life right now that sometimes it hurts me inside. Some days I wish something would come along to keep me in Utah, but other days all I want is to head straight down to Texas. Any thoughts?